goodbye friend

I recieved early this morning a very nasty text message through business card. The sender did not know that the message was sent in my sony ericsson phone (smart number) where numbers who sent the business cards would appear.

A nasty message from a used-to-be close friend. Very very close and trusted friend. Of course she denied it but how can she when I have the message still in my inbox with her number on it?

Gimik ko lang daw.

They broke my heart on my birthday last May. ‘They’ kasi dalawa sila. To be honest I do not know what happened or what triggered for both of them to get angry with me. On my birthday, I cried the whole day with a broken heart because I love them or so I loveD them.

Just last week, me and some friends with these two girls, we were at the private beach resort but treated each other as invisibles. Quite unbelievable for the three of us who were so inseparable before.

After confronting her about the nasty message, which I am contemplating of pushing it into court (it was really nasty I can sue her for it), she denied altogether saying she never knew about such text message. I do not care about the text per se. However, I am very hurt with all the words she texted me afterwards.

These were the friends I trusted so much. The friends I entrusted and asked for support and help when I was at my darkest moments after the personal tragedy I experienced a couple of years ago. Now, they hate me. I must have been a really bad person.

I asked them to answer my questions because I am as dumb as the three blind mice about what really made them so mad about me but all she could say is. “wala ka nang kaibigang babalikan.”

I know I am not a good person but I value and treasure my friends very much. I know I still have a couple of bestfriends left who love me for who I am. However I just can’t ignore what happened between the three of us because I love them. As far as I know, I really do not know why.

I do not want to go out of my bedroom because I do not want my family to see me crying.

Maybe in life, we really need to let go of some people we loved but will and could not be with us as we grow mature and live better-er lives just like Karlo. They were with me at my worst but they did not stay now that I am better.

My heart is so broken but I don’t feel alone.