Okay

Last Wednesday night, I recieved a text message from Marcelo asking me if I would ever forgive him for what he did.

To be honest, I did forgive him for what he thinks about me. Opinion niya yun at na-observe niya about me. Malamang tama siya since mahirap naman talaga ako intindihin.

Hindi ako nagse-self-pity right now. Tanggap ko na may topak ako eh.

I remembered my friend Jay’s text message, “If you can’t accept me at my worst, then you don’t deserve me at my best.”

Good thing I am not really emotionally attached to Marcelo or malamang umiiyak pa ako ngayon.

Nasaktan lang pride ko sa sinabi niya pero okay na ako.

I may have been desperate in having a boyfriend again but it does not mean I am not happy with my life right now. Yup, may mga moments na sad ako pero I have come to realize I am so blessed with the people around me who love me and accept me whether im psychologically ill or not.

While I was reflecting on what Marcelo said, I come to really realize how blessed I am with my friends whom despite my bitchy attitude, arrogance, stubborness, etc, they still are my friends and they still love me.

My close friend dondon told me, “it won’t be honey, if she aint a bitch! But I still love her though…”

I also realized how my family has endured all the crazy and out of this world ideas and plans in my head. My mother told me, it is my choice to be misunderstood by many but still she chooses to understand me beyond her human superpowers.

This is me, this who I am. My past will bring me luck or misfortune in my future but this is still me.

Take me as I am or leave me alone.